A girl like me...
0I just realized a thing, i dont do anything with my life that i can be proud of.
I waste it by sit infront of my computer days in and out..
I dont have any motivations at all anymore.
Sitting and glare on my pc screen and holding a overburned ciggarette in my hand.
My old friends are doing something with their lifes, they take driver license and gets a baby,they fight will all they have to make something with their lifes.
what do i get? cancer? i bet thats the only thing im working with right now..
killing myself slowly.
I dont have any dreams. or yes i have them, but its dreams that i know i cant fullfil.
I want to become a martial artists again and have an own dojang.
I want to teach people how to survive the life, not only by fighting with their fists, I want to learn them to fight their inner demons aswell.
I want to fullfil my mothers dream also, by having a family and live in the contry in a red house and to have alot of animals around me.I want to have horses, cats, and dogs, and some chickens.
But that wont even work.. My fiance is allergic to fur.
Oh thats a good new, I have been engaged :3
that part is so amazing, and it feels like im floating on air, or not really lets take a cooler thing
"I have never been happier! it feels like im floating on LoL characters xD"
It was like a fairytale with flowers and beautiful weather~
I got a phonecall from my bigbrother and he is going to give me the best birthday gift ever!
Im going to play paintball on saturday~
i have allways wanted to try that.
its going to be a good day to be shot at ;)
Im going to prepare myself mentally now~
And hope i wont be to scared to chicken out xD
Chuu // Emie